Grow Up

During my teenage years, I loved drama. Any drama. Ugly Betty, this is the one I remember most. One very particular dialogue that since then never leave my mind, “growing up means taking responsibilities for ALL the action and decision done”.  That’s the first time I have an idea of growing up, and understand what is growing up.

When we grow up, we were never told where we are heading to, and what the purpose of it is. It is the nature, the nature of human as days past, to learn and be better. Even now, I don’t know the true meaning of grow up, and I stick to that, responsibilities. Responsibilities on every  gesture, action and decision done.

There is no excuse, no running away. It means stand on my feet, and take the feedback and consequences.

Today, I had asked myself too many times why these happened to me. Too many times left unanswered, and today, he lightened my mind. I was an extremist, either YES or NO, no in between. Feelings, facts, truth, like in the court. Yes or No, answer the question. Like or not, acceptance, decline, agree, disagree and it’s always a yes or no.

Too many things in life are not a yes or no. There is a grey zone, very grey zone, where people are unable to define their feelings or purpose of action. This is the grey zone, where caused troubles. I avoided it, making my life clear, but it is not possible. This is the time where I should hate, but I am unable to, because feelings are involved.  This is the first time, I know how it feels like to be this helpless on feelings.

There is no perfection.