bullshit

i used to ask for hugs, now i ask for listener, then i ask for nothing. good for me.

i was told to be independent, but that part in me that is so afraid of being alone, did you feel it? did you see how that engulf me, and put me into fear, fear of no one around? Indeed, I need more friends, so that i can share, and at least, when the one i need most is not around, I have a substitute. Is it so?

and if it is so, did you realize that that will only make me more feeling worse, because i have no one to hang on. I am all by myself.

People tell you to be independent because they can't be there for you. Don't you think so? Throughout our life, we are looking. Looking for the one that is willing to stay by you, and be there for you. When I make up my mind to stay by myself, these 'caring' people told me that they will be there for me. At the end of the story, I am still alone, being put through the course of looking for someone over an over again.